Monday, December 22, 2008

Its ending all too soon, you'll see.

saw you today. wanted to say hi, but didnt know what you would say. by the time i was about to, you went away. its been too long.

Find your mirror go and look inside
and see the talent you always hide
don't go kidd yourself well not today
satisfaction's not too far away

Hold on now your exits here
it's waiting jsut for you
don't pause too long
it's fading now
its's ending all too soon you'll see
-Pete Murray. Opportunity

Friday, November 7, 2008

Keep Walking

for the past couple of days those jonny walker ads have been playing in my head(the one where the guy gets fired from his job so that he can become a film maker, and the one where he cant get a grant so his buddies throw everything in for him)

is it wrong to base your future on a message in a commercial? probably not...
for once i wish i had longer in ns(and no way am i extending).

i still have to decide, july or feb? i would like a last july here. well, still a while away, lets just see what surprise december holds....

P.S: sorry, random thoughts of a confused mind...

Friday, October 31, 2008


Do you ever stop to count all the invitations
At the end of the day when it comes down to one decision
Of dead beat girls and freaks at a peoples convention,
All these sugars with no vitamin sensation.

Do you ever stop to look over old relations,
Or look to the belly of another one's emotions,
Someone young in the winds of a revolution
Trying to save his face in the evolution.

Asleep at the wheel,
No windshield,
But you know that the streets
Here don't change.

He's kept alive in the chain of mental starvation,
Bone rail skinny, only feeding off frustration.
Unlike you who seem bred from corruption
Feeding off the plates of an ununited nation.

Asleep at the wheel,
No windshield,
But you know that the streets
Here don't change.

With a lover in the street whose waiting to make a connection
To be the mother to the soul of your next abortion,
She'll steal your money with the eyes of a baby's complexion
Then she'll laugh at you and your sexual invention.

Smelling like a rose, in the flowers of devotion,
Devoted the heat of a spotlight in motion,
With a face full of mud even though you were only joking
As if you really understood the value of isolation.

Asleep at the wheel,
No windshield,
But you know that the streets
Here don't change.

Your tongue so fast like a freight train coming on rollin'
Every smile you give's just to keep your mouth from closing
Every engine burns as a sign of the explosion
Locked in neutral your engines are broken.

Like candle wax that sun melts into the ocean,
Like the moon that lights the tracks of the old train station,
You can color in the lines of mother earth's addictions,
And not hold a gun in the face of the Earth's abduction

Asleep at the wheel,
No windshield,
But you know that the streets
Here don't change.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Where you least expect(edited)

you know how they say you usually find what you are looking for in the last place you would look? dont you just HATE it when that happens!

was running late for dinner at pam's place, since i woke up like 20 min late(luckily pam and her mom offered to pick me up) and since i was late and they would be at my place in 5 min i frantically grabbed my essentials(phone, wallet and keys) keys were no where in sight. now my usual habit its to put it somewhere on my table(just on a pile of stuff) or on the table downstairs. it was in neither and i was already really late. so i said screw it and went out the back door.

when i got home i continued my search. i began by sweeping the first floor(including the bin and washing machine just in case) after deducing it was not there i began the search in my room. since the standard state of my room is a mess i have become quite efficient at going through the piles and piles of stuff. basically just transfer the whole pile, item by item, to another part of my room. same applies to my desk(i also went through my cupboards and toilet). now after a good hour i thought i would give the first floor another go before calling it quits for the night.

obviously unfruitful i locked up and went upstairs to sleep. and then as it struck me. i hadnt searched my bed yet. and as soon as i removed my blanket there were my keys sitting and starting at me.

P.S: i think i need a new key chain(half the gems in mine have fallen off)
P.P.S: better now?

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Long and Overdue

i know i've been silent for a long while. first was just too tired with work to do anything. then wanted to pic blog n blog bout my trip in perth. but didnt take that many photos. have some of these stunt drivers in their Hilux and some of fireworks, think may have a couple more. havent even transferred them to my com. still trying to catch up with heroes and supernatural(not going into gossip girl cause havent even completed season 1).

and now after going to perth, im kinda in a dilemma. well technically i've always been in this dilemma but going to perth kinda threw it to the top of my priorities list(which is kinda long! haha)

3 options, 3 paths, 3 different expirences. honestly i would have to say that this is the biggest dicision of my life, and im just so lost. I want to go, but there are things holding me here. I want to stay but there are things drawing me there. I could go then stay, but would it be the same? would i still have the same reasons for staying. I always thought it would be an easy choice, like as if i would deffinatly do option 3. but much has changed in that short time. the world has turned and left me here. will it do it again?

everything will change soon; i've never been one for change. no matter how i always found my own way through the simplest of problems, always being so sure of my direction, taking a leap of faith and running with it. most of the time i came out on top, but there were those bad days that things kinda fell apart. but i still had fun; i always fought till the end, even when i knew things wouldnt work out.

work is crushing my soul. in my time here, i've seen the best of people and the worst of the low-lives. the strenght of selflessness, the extent of selfishness. the most honest and the outrageously hypothetical. and just when i think i can breath again, more nonsense comes up. its really sickening...

I love my job. I hate my work.

PS: im really glad. i didnt know if we could pick up where we left off. apparently we can, tonight was like old times again. welcome back.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

The Proper Way to Eat a Xia Long Pao

The Six Steps To Properly Eat a Xia Long Pao.

Step One: Pour Vinegar Into the Ginger.
Step Two: Dip The Xia Long Pao In The Ginger.
Step Three: Place Xia Long Pao On The Spoon.
Step Four: Nibble At The Xia Long Pao and Drink The Juice.
Step Five: Pour Vinegar/Ginger Mixture On The Xia Long Pao.Step Six: Enjoy =)

BYE! See you all in 10 days!! And if you wanted anything, you have till 830am to ask me! if not you get what your given! haha! bye!!

Friday, August 22, 2008

General Notice

this is just a friendly announcement to everyone who is ever going to be eating my cooking. DONT LET ME PLAY MY PSP WHILE IM COOKING!!!

i had left the frozen chicken in a pot of shallow water and went up do check my phone, then since i thought the rice would take a while to be done i picked up my psp and thought i could finish a round before i had to go back down. luckily dad came to pass me a kelly swet cd, if not id never notice the burning chicken!! and if your wondering, no it not as bad as that time i went to someone's place for a steamboat and said person cracked the glass cover(thought that very well could have happened)

and yes i know i said id blog more, but my left finger tips hurt(when i type) from playing my new acoustic. and im not interested in trying to type with one hand! so you all will just have to wait for some funny thing to happen to me or for my left finger tips to go numb

PS: play psp only need thumbs
PPS: becky please dont tell mom i almost burnt down the house, again. ironically i just cleaned the kitchen before i started cooking, so you can tell her the kitchen is clean now(though filled with smoke)still looks ok right??? wasnt that badly burnt just the bottom so i just cut around it.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

*jaw drops*

i'll just make this a quick one, rushing off to work...

this is seriously scary! watch and be in awe.

Kicker: he is 10.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Surprise all around

cheryl i think you'll love this one, haha!

ok about 4 or 5 in the afternoon i get a message from leo saying 'Hey nick, what's the plan for jeremy tonight?' so naturally i figured that something was up, initially i assumed that nic was planning something over at amplify cause i asked him if he was going(thus implying i was going) in the end i went for amanda's drama thing. so i just thought 'haha, nice try guys. next time you want to do a surprise make sure the recipient is with you at all times'

then later at ijtp, it felt odd that only marcus, terence, ryan, emmanuel and freda were there, so naturally i asked chris why he wasnt there, and he replied sayin he was busy, so i began to have subtle suspicions. but after a while i was 'nah' and true enough we ran into chris and ben chia at j8 after the play. and then i show chris leo's message and chris tells me the whole story, bout how he messaged everyone, even calling up my mom and asking her if we could use the house.

as soon as he said that i pictured my mom having cooked a huge meal and there being food everywhere(since now the living and dining are void of furniture save a computer[dining] table, the sofa, and a bar[yes becky, mich's bar])

and lo and behold i come home to find a stack of prata, two pots of curry and a tray of chicken wings. and apparently my mom had gone and invited my aunts over as part of the surprise(but by the time i got home they had left) so guess 'surprise' on them, haha!(a surprise party where the guests are surprised, that the recipient doesnt come) but if any there is any saving point for chris' surprise party its that when i got home aunty caroline(my aunt from canberra) was here.

Monday, July 7, 2008

i want to ORD!

i really hate work. i hate RT. its so stupid. just a waste of my time. im already so tired from duties and you are forcing me to go for RT every mon, wed n fri. IM TIRED as it is and YOU YOURSELF said you dont think i can pass by the time i ORD. SO, really what is the bloody point?! just so you can show the big shots you are TRYING? do you thing I care about what they think of you? im just here to do my time and go off. and now even on my LEAVE you want to ka chow me?! bloody hell.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

sorry, been busy

firstly to amanda leo; miss you too! haha and we'll find you a new pool boy soon(and replacements for the other two) hint hint - we will get one you can go slipper shopping with! haha

ok couple of song lyrics for now(not originals, not yet haha, yes feel like writing again)

Livin on a Prayer(in dedication to YWM)

We've got to hold on to what we've got
'Cause it doesn't make a difference if we make it or not.
We've got each other and that's a lot for love -
We'll give it a shot.
We're half way there - Livin' on a prayer

Long story....

Sunday, June 8, 2008


ok time to pump some life back into this black, red and white page! havent blogged in over a month!(quickly dusts off cobwebs)

well for starters here are the pics and vids from josephine's bday.
your usual group shot(to prove that everyone was there at the same time)the birthday girl with her cake(just after the flames were put out) and the mastermind(thanking god the church didnt burn down) with 14 other random church people(i had time to count how many but not enough to ask for their names)

and here is the video we took in case the church did burn down, you know just as evidence that it was completely unintentional and a complete accident. plus we thought it would be cool to see the sparks over and over again(if your wondering where vic n leo went; they went up the hill to fetch a pail of water. no one came tumbling down or broke their crowns or came tumbling after. they didnt even get the water, not sure if they even made it up the hill. and if your wondering why this tag has turned into a rant; its casue the vid it taking longer that i thought it would to up load so im just typing so i dont fall asleep while waiting)

Monday, April 21, 2008

Random Stuff

here i am, again.

was going through some old photos and just thinking of a lot of stuff that happened in the past that was, in a way, left unresolved. and just started to tear. happen to be listening to casting crowns at the time and these were the lines that just happen to be sung.

"Walls are falling down, storms are closing in
Tears have filled my eyes, here I am again"

" Curse this morning sun, drags me in to one more day
Of reaping what I've sown, of living with my shame
Welcome to my world, and the life that I have made
Where one day you're a prince, the next day your a slave"

-Casting Crowns; Prodigal.

I shouldn't do something just for the sake of it.
(No its not what you think)

as time drags on it looks like my greatest fear is drawing closer. as of now im not ready to face it. im not sure if i'll ever be ready. and the worst part is that its not just coming at me once, its lining itself up to come over and over again and from every angle possible. there is a small thing i can cling onto to not be consumed by it, but thats just running from it right?

Thursday, April 10, 2008

i can see.

haha, cheryl this is for you.

I can see clearly now, the fringe is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark strands that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

pictures of you, pictures of me

saw a stack of old photos on the table when i got home today. so naturally picked it up. was pictures of OLPS before the renovation and there were so many people, so naturally assumed someone's wedding. and as i went though them i noticed dad standing at the side of the alter with aunty mare and uncle al. then did i notice it was pictures from my baptism.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

when you dont listen

during today's homily Fr peter was talking about the importance of the sanctity of mass and how you shouldn't use phones, or talk during mass. and lo and be hold, the people in front of us were talking just as he said it, and they kept on talking. the kids to my left were messaging and over by the wall some girl fell asleep.

i was reminded of the time Fr Robert was giving a homily about love and there was a family and the father and daughter were fighting.

food for thought.

one year gone

why i so like that? cause of you fren lah! haha

cant believe its been over a year since i set up my blog(yes i know, most of you reading this have had blogs for years)

*and someone's one year anniversary would have been coming up, haha sorry man*

just have to get through another year and it should all be ok, dont know what to do yet. i want to go to learn but think it'll be harder to leave this time. last time was easy cause of what happened between me & ___ but will the same thing happen again? will i be ok with it happening with them? guess time will tell, que sera sera? never know, may decide on a different path by the time this is all over.

Sunday, March 30, 2008


im getting to lazy to blog(as if you couldnt already tell haha) =)

Friday, March 21, 2008

its been a while

"It's been a while
Since I've gone and ____ed things up just like i always do
It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you"
~ Stained - Its Been a While

as it is, being in army has made me cherish those closest to me. one month in what is affectionately known as the 'pit of the shit-hole' has thrown to light the fact that i cannot go too long with out them around. just missing one week of their presence(plus all the crap im getting at work) and im just about ready to lose it.

but just a few short(cherished) hours with you(or the mere plan to meet up with you, which fell through due to unforeseen circumstances) and it all melts away. all the stress, the pain, the fatigue, the hours suffering in silence, bitting my tongue and faking a smile(or trying to)

i miss every moment, sessions, coffee shop talks, bus rides home, 'never mind __' moments, hanging out till late where ever we can, random moments, bitching on the phone till we both realise we should sleep and just sitting next to you.

"Took awhile to see all the love that's around me
Through the highs and lows there's a truth that I know
And it's You"
~ Thousand Foot Krutch - Breathe You In

Thank You, Again.

Monday, March 10, 2008

sing, sing, sing.

haha, just read through the lyrics for wonderwall, so here is something aimed at KGP+other and YAP(cheryl will understand)

Wonderwall - Oasis

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
(YLM session the week before youth mass)
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
(you have to leave)
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
(how much we hate you)

Backbeat the word was on the street
(everyone knows)
That the fire in your heart is out
(your not here to help us)
I'm sure you've heard it all before
(to get lost from church)
But you never really had a doubt
(you dont care so you dont doubt what your doing)
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
(dont know where you are trying to lead us)
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
(blinding us with your secrecy)
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
(get out of my church, you dont beling here, this is not YOUR movement...)
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
(Mr. S)
And after all
You're my wonderwall
(our wonderwall against YAP)

Sunday, March 9, 2008


had ed's birthday party on sat, and thanks to cheryl n van it was bollywood themed. we had a prata cake, a bollywood scene and a dancing elephant(haha)

after session we were at the coffeshop, for once without our usual question of 'where do we go now?' cause this time it was to arab street or marine parade? marine parade won out, due to the fact that is arab street and it was a sat night(crowded with....)

and at dinner everyone(except cheryl) ordered the fried chicken(she had the grilled chicken). and me and my wingman(aaron chua) were the only ones to order the beef. haha.

after dinner, along the way to marina square(i think its marina square) to use the toilets, we found a bubble tea shop that did ribena ice blended(ok i know its not such a big deal, but was good, not too icy and it melted in your mouth very fast)

and at marina square we couldnt help but wonder into borders where i cheryl n daisy spent a good 20 min just going through their 'cute stuff' section. and after that i randomly got the idea to get ed a book(since i didnt have the time to get him anything) and asked daisy if she wanted to 'tompang' haha, was quite random and fun.

then van n cheryl wanted to hang out more but the others all wanted to go home so the 3 of use went to amk central macs and sat down at a table for 15 minutes before we realised we were all too tired. so just went home
it speaks for itself
me n my soda gembira(carbonated bundong)
cheryl n her lime juice cause milk will mess her up
before(this i actually round 2, was too hungry to get a shot of round 1)
after(went through 3 of those cup thingys of chilly)just the 3 of us, as always.


got back to work on friday morning for my second solo 24hr duty. only to find out that i kena back stabbed by the guy(ko) who was doing the 24hr duty before me. just cause i never close the books properly! and when did he bring it up? while mr lim was commenting that i didnt do a very good job at cleaning(which in my defense i DID and anyway no matter how well you clean/ do anything he will always say its not good enough!) so that idiot just HAD to rub salt into the wound. but since the old man didnt bring anything up(only found out bout it while kenneth was bitching bout ko) either he forgot about it or he likes me too much to care about it(he doesnt like ko either)

then while on duty i felt like the old man's pa. kept running errands for him and all, then on sat morning when i wanted to fall out, i was still running around, was supposed to hand over at 8am but only handed over at 930! dont know how i had so many things to do!

hmmm, will blog bout sat in a different entry.

Monday, February 25, 2008


again im very sorry to both of you. believe me when i say it was never my intention for things to turn this way.

but what would you have done in my situation? i felt i was caught in the middle and so i thought i could use that to smooth things over. cause honestly both of you have very strong personalities, and i do really want things to go back the way they were.

"im sorry if i felt there were somethings both of you needed to hear one another say. guess i should have know that you both needed the other to say it, not me."

im sorry i betrayed the trust between us by going to tell the other the things you have said. im sorry for speaking when i should have been listening. im sorry that i said things maybe i shouldnt have and being hypocritical. im sorry im too concerned about this. and im sorry that seeing the both of you like this breaks my heart. can you honestly expect me to feel any differently?

i leave this matter up to the two of you now. since you both dont want me to interfere. if you want tell me anything i'll listen, this time i promise i'll keep it all to myself. i should have know i cant force things to go back the way they were. but like i said my only intention was to smooth things over between the both of you. and again im truly sorry if in the process i have abused the trust between us.

ive lost too many friends before. i dont want to lose anymore.

Sunday, February 24, 2008


spent the whole day today at home. going between the computer(heavy research) and the kitchen. and suddenly i have a....craving? listen to Praise and Worship songs, but my collection isnt that large(mostly just random stuff i managed to get off some people here and there)

then mom and dad were going to thompson plaza after mass to do some grocery shopping and dinner and i needed to go to yamaha cause one of my stings UN-wound and another one is starting to give me problems. thus needed a new set(got 2 this time, since thompson is near by but very lei chey to go there by bus) then while waiting for mom and dad(who stopped by aunty cat's n uncle raymond's new place for a bit) i wondered over to sembawang music to see if i was fortunate enough that they would be selling shirlyn tan's album(no such luck) but did stumble across the christian music section and that....inspired me to buy a couple of cds, but not from sembawang(went to daily gifts, its across from the hardware store, near the florist) cause daily gifts has a wider range(speciality shop, haha)

ok here is the key for the next paragraph: "what i said", 'what she said', [what i thought]

then i kena ambush by this mina sales girl about this cream thing. she pointed at my hand and said "this one can remove" then grabbed my hand and smeared this white cream over it and dragged me to the booth(all while i was trying to figure out what was on my hand) then she said 'this one sun burn right? can remove' and i was thinking to myself [cant you bloody tell the difference between a sun tan and sun burn!] then she picked up this mirror and pointed to my scar from the iron and said 'this one can remove' then i said "its a scar" 'can remove' [what if i dont want to remove it?] then she went on to demo the cream, and my left hand did turn lighter, but the cream had removed a few layers of my skin so it felt more sensitive then usual, plus SHE BLOODY AGGRAVATED ALL 10(yes 10!!) of the bug bites i had on that had.

SIDE NOTE: just remembered i wanted to buy a nail clipper

rebels with a cause

went for mass with van, cheryl n nic after session and we were all looking forward to the free food downstairs(the entrance hymn said we were 'all invited' haha, only surprised the offertory wasnt table of plenty) but nic had his own dinner plans(family) so was only the 3 of us waiting eagerly to assault the food(well there were quite a number of other youths around, mostly mpm). but when the adults were let at the food, we all kinda agreed it wasnt really worth it so went over to j8 for yoshi(and divided mpm in the process, half went to amk the other to bishan)

then kena detour near ite casue of the chinggay parade, so the bus went around street 13 to get to the interchange. the we kena potong jalan by some chinese family at yoshi for a seat, but luckily found a nice little corner. funny thing was that van ordered beef, cheryl ordered chicken and i ordered both, haha. n we just sat there for at least an hour just taking bout what we always do.

then ant came to join us and we changed topic to PAC(a.k.a THEM) and then we called up our chauffeur and indented one times aeroplane(haha) and the supervising driver(ed) was en route. then went to dempsey road for ben and jerry's(and to just randomly walk around)

and since after dessert ed and ant had to go, the rest of us(van cheryl me n nic) went back to my place for supper and after some....over excitement....i and van wanted to play mah jong but our kaki didnt, so i had to carry her to the table 3 times(not to mention countless pokes) and once we started she didnt want to stop. haha so much for not liking it! some more won 18+ bucks

Pictures: the ben n jerry's was packed so we entertained ourselves while waiting for seats....
i dont know what nic was doing....i only look spastic casue i kept closing my eye every time ed took the picture(i dont like flash!)i want a VW bus! its so cool...can drive down to sentosa! hahacheryl fence sitting(or getting a lift from the cow, which ever way you want to look at it)ant and ed fighting cause they got lostit would have been a nice picture without the flash(i dont like flash!)the main attraction!(and no thats not a spotlight, though its cool. van took a picture from the other side....ok flash not so bad....)cheryl being cherylagain, cheryl being cheryllast minute protest to mah jong

SIDE NOTE: a little bit of conversation that took place yesterday
Person X to Person Y: what if you dont like your boss?
Person Y to Person X(with a big smile on his face) : Ah! what if you dont like your....
Person Z to Person Y(cut in half way): but your not our boss!
Person Y keeps quite and looks away. HAHA!

black jack

ok, played black jack twice this year and both times aaron chua was sitting next to me. and the first night we noticed that we often got the same cards or at least added up to the same amount. so on the second night after a while we thought we would try to video record how freaky(yet cool) it was. so this is a video dedicated to my wingman.

Monday, February 18, 2008


i've taken the ring off.

Friday, February 15, 2008

And the clouds above move closer

quick upload from valentine's day(no mom, no valentine for me)(and for everyone else: no one in mind either)

dismounted(after a long list of treatments for ruby; old bitch) hope to get benny, just cause he looks cool(german shepherd but instead of yellow hes white.

work aside:

how does someone with no valentine spend valentine's day?
Bake! haha. and have a wonderful friend to organise a valentine's day gathering for a bunch of her unattached friends(thank you!)
my heart-shaped valentine's day cake
ant resuming his modeling role
cheryl having a random moment with the cam.

and kena scolding from angela for not baking brownies, so pushed blame to pam, who pushed blame back to me, haha!

SIDE NOTE: pam gave us all decks of cards. and cheryl said pam was trying to get us all to gamble. cheryl for your information my godparents(that is my baptisim godma and confirmation godparents taught me to play poker)

Monday, February 11, 2008

got new kaki!

27/01/2008 (23:15:52)
[cheryl] sleep compensation and energy replacement says:
hahha im not interested at all. i hate majhong. i dun even think i can read the words on the tiles.

haha now looks who is addicted to mahjhong. playing for at least 8 hours in one day haha. we really should make that list of things you havent done/eaten before soon....that way saturday evenings will be easier to plan haha.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

on a happier note!

ok i know pam is gonna be just a little irritated at this but its still a non-emo post ok!

went to ARMY market with wen hui to get stuff. he needed L-torches, i wanted to get knee-guards(high-kneeling on asphalt isnt that comfortable, why do it? cause my legs go numb if i sit cross leg too long) and we both needed zip-locks casue the old man wants us to prep our field packs(dont know why, we arnt even army anymore!)

funny story bout the zip-locks, just happened to walk past this shop and this guy asks the lady how much were the medium size zip-locks and she says they were $1 for 5. i thought that was a pretty good deal. the guy just says ok and walks off(in a relatively rude manner) so naturally the sales lady is quite ticked off and says to me and her other customer:

Lady: wah, some people dont even want $1 FOR 5. so cheap still want to go look for cheaper. this is army market not a shopping center
Arrogant man: HEY! dont talk to your customers like that!

and he walks off. and i, the other customer and the lady all exchange 'what the hell?' looks. must be an officer(too young to be srg major and specs arnt usually that cocky)

that aside, we ate chicken rice accompanied by laksa gravy for lunch n gulped down (relatively) good sugar cane juice(before shopping). after shopping we were supposed to go get glutinous rice balls but the shop was closed so we skipped ahead to desserts. wen hui had almond soup thing n the belgian waffles caught my eye. they even had european biscuit ice cream(tasted like digestives) and they cut up the waffle n let you dip it in their chocolate sauce(hi mom, im getting a lecture as soon as you see this right? love you!)

and we both HAD to have goreng pisang. and interestingly the store had batter fried mushrooms(those long white ones with small 'helmets') was too full to have the goreng pisang so gave it to dad for tea(ironically he was making a pot of tea when i got home)

and yes mom, i got the oranges. =) think aunty is out so will wait for her to come home to give the hamper.

Dragons! Dare us!!

im tired. i should sleep. but if i do it will only make the day end faster. i dont want today to end. but i know it has to, sometime. better now i guess.

getting that feeling of deja vu. it all feels like im 15 again. i WONT repeat those 3 mistakes again. guess im kinda repeating 'P' or 'A'(though it feels more like half of 'P' and on the verge of 'A'). i see 'E' and dont know what to do. and well i guess i dont have to worry bout 'P2', right? dont foresee anything like that happening again.

(please just ignore that paragraph, i dont talk to those people anymore so i doubt anyone reading this would know who they are)

crap, feeling so emo-ish now a days. i dont like it. i know holding on will just make it worse, but there is that mentality that it could all turn around. think my chance was gone(if it ever existed) long ago.

Monday, January 28, 2008

the storm maybe too big to smile at

ARGH! i'm not going to bother typing it out because i've already repeated it 5 times today.

i trust you too much lah! but it feels good to fully trust someone again. to laugh at the oddest things, to look into my past on the chapters i closed never wanting to re-open. thank you for putting up with all my crap, and for everything you've done. will keep smiling just because your my best friend.(sorry, you know what for. in my defense you started it, haha)

i'm sorry, i know we haven't hung out much lately, but looks like its my turn to get really busy. i promise i'll still be around if you ever need me. but well, i know i'm not the first person you'd run to. but i'm still glad i'm somewhere on that list. and despite the most inappropriate things you say, i still cherish every moment spent with you.

SIDE NOTE: like the punctuations?
SIDE NOTE: and i'm really sorry if i cant make it on the 14th. it's not because i don't want to, i really do and i'll try my hardest but if i kena means i kena, not much i can say or do.
SIDE NOTE: i don't like my job as much as i thought i would.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Mary Jane

been listening to the click five for the past few days and i found this song quite accurate bout how i feel towards someone who i now see as a waste of time to talk to. was any of it real? 4 years ago? 10 months ago? 4 months? ever?

Mary Jane
by The Click Five

I didn't cry the day you moved away
Didn't think that I would feel this pain
Until I saw the stranger that was you

Whatever happened to our innocence
And that something that you said about being friends
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothing's gonna change
Cuz time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see?
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Or whatever happened to...
Mary Jane

I need to wake up from this state of mind
The situation is a staying kind
I gotta get your memory out of my head

Would you catch me if I had to fall
Would you even find the time without it all
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothing's gonna change
Cuz time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see?
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Or whatever happened to...
Mary Jane

Cuz time is taking back
Everything I thought we had
Tell me how
(Mary Jane...)
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothing's gonna change
Cuz time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see?
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Or whatever happened to...
Mary Jane


i know i said id blog more often, but yeah, havent really much. lost my rhythm for a bit, but got it back now. and more than ever i can smile in the face of any storm.

todays been odd to say the least, was talking with van on the bus to bishan from thompson bout how cheryl, pam and chris(k) know becky then bout the coincidence bout pam being my aunt. plus found out that val's fav bible verse is same as mine(1 corinthians : 13) and that she might be doing hosp too. just random coincidences.

well few more hours to the last time i get to see bobo. will miss the guy, would really love a dog of my own. but think will have to wait till after ns(hi mom, bet your sayin 'NO' right now)

One day at a time? Take things as they come? Smile at the sun.

SIDE NOTE: did i mention i was only functioning on an hour of sleep casue mom woke me up to close the gate then i just kinda sleep...

Sunday, January 20, 2008

this is war!

who are you to barge in and tell us things we already know. who are you to tell us how we should go about doing things when we have already planned out how we are goin to do them. why should we just hop to you tune because YOU think we arent doing things fast enough. we are adults too. just casue you have donkey years of experience of how to prance around a stage n pretend to be someone your not doesnt mean you can tell us how to do our job.

we are trying, you said so yourself. cant you at least be supportive? i thought you would be. i put so much faith and trust in you. i really thought you would be someone i could count on, yet you betrayed us, more so you betrayed me. how can i look at you the same again.

i agree, a chain is only as strong as its weakest link. but have you stopped to think that maybe YOU are the weakest link? i refuse to let you do this. i will fight and not care the repercussions. this is something i firmly believe in. and as the rock i will stand firm against all you throw at me and by His grace i will survive.

SIDE NOTE: im sorry i couldnt protect you. i wanted to but i didnt know what to say. you know where i stand. i will speak up. he will hear my voice!

Saturday, January 19, 2008

shit day

my plan for tmr:
Morning- scoop shit
Afternoon - deal with shit
Evening - listen to shit

yes, its gonna be fun!

*sigh* did i mention how much i HATE 2008. every time it gets to a point im happy, something comes around and messes everything up. not to the point of complete disorder or the like, just enough that i feel damn.....sian....(not angry, just sian, dont know how im gonna deal with it but i will try)

i love Bobo, gonna miss the guy when i have to leave. hes so cute! granted quite lazy but hes such a darling, so obedient and lovey.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

got T2, T3, No 4

not enough rest. couldnt concentrate in mass. not really tired, just...'gah'. gonna try n improve my guitar playin, since someone prompted me to. guess its gonna be a very 'lets see how it goes from here' year.

went to taka after mass to meet mom n becky to get my watch(the one with the metal strap) readjusted(its too loose now) then had lunch at the food village. becky got her hor fun which shes been dying for n i had omelet rice with jap curry(nicer than it sounds)

then went back to church to meet pam, cheryl n van to go see chris kwok off at the airport. well we actually went to eat popeye's(his treat, after some coaxing) and he just happen to be there. haha
well, pictures!(insert caption here)waving bye to chrischeryl isnt happy and van doenst carewe are happythe roof of T3everyone was taking picturestesting the seats for quality controlhanging out with daisysee told you!playing on the travalator. we found out if you hold the side and touch someone else you will kena static. and pam wanted to ride it again just to zap all of in a candy store.Cadbury's Angels just to see if we could fit everyone in
cheryl looks scary when she wants to go home

SIDE NOTE: haha, cheryl i wont miss ***** but i'll miss w**** and w**** haha.