Long and Overdue

i know i've been silent for a long while. first was just too tired with work to do anything. then wanted to pic blog n blog bout my trip in perth. but didnt take that many photos. have some of these stunt drivers in their Hilux and some of fireworks, think may have a couple more. havent even transferred them to my com. still trying to catch up with heroes and supernatural(not going into gossip girl cause havent even completed season 1).

and now after going to perth, im kinda in a dilemma. well technically i've always been in this dilemma but going to perth kinda threw it to the top of my priorities list(which is kinda long! haha)

3 options, 3 paths, 3 different expirences. honestly i would have to say that this is the biggest dicision of my life, and im just so lost. I want to go, but there are things holding me here. I want to stay but there are things drawing me there. I could go then stay, but would it be the same? would i still have the same reasons for staying. I always thought it would be an easy choice, like as if i would deffinatly do option 3. but much has changed in that short time. the world has turned and left me here. will it do it again?

everything will change soon; i've never been one for change. no matter how i always found my own way through the simplest of problems, always being so sure of my direction, taking a leap of faith and running with it. most of the time i came out on top, but there were those bad days that things kinda fell apart. but i still had fun; i always fought till the end, even when i knew things wouldnt work out.

work is crushing my soul. in my time here, i've seen the best of people and the worst of the low-lives. the strenght of selflessness, the extent of selfishness. the most honest and the outrageously hypothetical. and just when i think i can breath again, more nonsense comes up. its really sickening...

I love my job. I hate my work.

PS: im really glad. i didnt know if we could pick up where we left off. apparently we can, tonight was like old times again. welcome back.