Monday, April 21, 2008

Random Stuff

here i am, again.

was going through some old photos and just thinking of a lot of stuff that happened in the past that was, in a way, left unresolved. and just started to tear. happen to be listening to casting crowns at the time and these were the lines that just happen to be sung.

"Walls are falling down, storms are closing in
Tears have filled my eyes, here I am again"

" Curse this morning sun, drags me in to one more day
Of reaping what I've sown, of living with my shame
Welcome to my world, and the life that I have made
Where one day you're a prince, the next day your a slave"

-Casting Crowns; Prodigal.

I shouldn't do something just for the sake of it.
(No its not what you think)

as time drags on it looks like my greatest fear is drawing closer. as of now im not ready to face it. im not sure if i'll ever be ready. and the worst part is that its not just coming at me once, its lining itself up to come over and over again and from every angle possible. there is a small thing i can cling onto to not be consumed by it, but thats just running from it right?

Thursday, April 10, 2008

i can see.

haha, cheryl this is for you.

I can see clearly now, the fringe is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark strands that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

pictures of you, pictures of me

saw a stack of old photos on the table when i got home today. so naturally picked it up. was pictures of OLPS before the renovation and there were so many people, so naturally assumed someone's wedding. and as i went though them i noticed dad standing at the side of the alter with aunty mare and uncle al. then did i notice it was pictures from my baptism.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

when you dont listen

during today's homily Fr peter was talking about the importance of the sanctity of mass and how you shouldn't use phones, or talk during mass. and lo and be hold, the people in front of us were talking just as he said it, and they kept on talking. the kids to my left were messaging and over by the wall some girl fell asleep.

i was reminded of the time Fr Robert was giving a homily about love and there was a family and the father and daughter were fighting.

food for thought.

one year gone

why i so like that? cause of you fren lah! haha

cant believe its been over a year since i set up my blog(yes i know, most of you reading this have had blogs for years)

*and someone's one year anniversary would have been coming up, haha sorry man*

just have to get through another year and it should all be ok, dont know what to do yet. i want to go to learn but think it'll be harder to leave this time. last time was easy cause of what happened between me & ___ but will the same thing happen again? will i be ok with it happening with them? guess time will tell, que sera sera? never know, may decide on a different path by the time this is all over.