And the clouds above move closer

quick upload from valentine's day(no mom, no valentine for me)(and for everyone else: no one in mind either)

dismounted(after a long list of treatments for ruby; old bitch) hope to get benny, just cause he looks cool(german shepherd but instead of yellow hes white.

work aside:

how does someone with no valentine spend valentine's day?
Bake! haha. and have a wonderful friend to organise a valentine's day gathering for a bunch of her unattached friends(thank you!)
my heart-shaped valentine's day cake
ant resuming his modeling role
cheryl having a random moment with the cam.

and kena scolding from angela for not baking brownies, so pushed blame to pam, who pushed blame back to me, haha!

SIDE NOTE: pam gave us all decks of cards. and cheryl said pam was trying to get us all to gamble. cheryl for your information my godparents(that is my baptisim godma and confirmation godparents taught me to play poker)

got new kaki!

27/01/2008 (23:15:52)
[cheryl] sleep compensation and energy replacement says:
hahha im not interested at all. i hate majhong. i dun even think i can read the words on the tiles.

haha now looks who is addicted to mahjhong. playing for at least 8 hours in one day haha. we really should make that list of things you havent done/eaten before soon....that way saturday evenings will be easier to plan haha.

on a happier note!

ok i know pam is gonna be just a little irritated at this but its still a non-emo post ok!

went to ARMY market with wen hui to get stuff. he needed L-torches, i wanted to get knee-guards(high-kneeling on asphalt isnt that comfortable, why do it? cause my legs go numb if i sit cross leg too long) and we both needed zip-locks casue the old man wants us to prep our field packs(dont know why, we arnt even army anymore!)

funny story bout the zip-locks, just happened to walk past this shop and this guy asks the lady how much were the medium size zip-locks and she says they were $1 for 5. i thought that was a pretty good deal. the guy just says ok and walks off(in a relatively rude manner) so naturally the sales lady is quite ticked off and says to me and her other customer:

Lady: wah, some people dont even want $1 FOR 5. so cheap still want to go look for cheaper. this is army market not a shopping center
Arrogant man: HEY! dont talk to your customers like that!

and he walks off. and i, the other customer and the lady all exchange 'what the hell?' looks. must be an officer(too young to be srg major and specs arnt usually that cocky)

that aside, we ate chicken rice accompanied by laksa gravy for lunch n gulped down (relatively) good sugar cane juice(before shopping). after shopping we were supposed to go get glutinous rice balls but the shop was closed so we skipped ahead to desserts. wen hui had almond soup thing n the belgian waffles caught my eye. they even had european biscuit ice cream(tasted like digestives) and they cut up the waffle n let you dip it in their chocolate sauce(hi mom, im getting a lecture as soon as you see this right? love you!)

and we both HAD to have goreng pisang. and interestingly the store had batter fried mushrooms(those long white ones with small 'helmets') was too full to have the goreng pisang so gave it to dad for tea(ironically he was making a pot of tea when i got home)

and yes mom, i got the oranges. =) think aunty is out so will wait for her to come home to give the hamper.

Dragons! Dare us!!

im tired. i should sleep. but if i do it will only make the day end faster. i dont want today to end. but i know it has to, sometime. better now i guess.

getting that feeling of deja vu. it all feels like im 15 again. i WONT repeat those 3 mistakes again. guess im kinda repeating 'P' or 'A'(though it feels more like half of 'P' and on the verge of 'A'). i see 'E' and dont know what to do. and well i guess i dont have to worry bout 'P2', right? dont foresee anything like that happening again.

(please just ignore that paragraph, i dont talk to those people anymore so i doubt anyone reading this would know who they are)

crap, feeling so emo-ish now a days. i dont like it. i know holding on will just make it worse, but there is that mentality that it could all turn around. think my chance was gone(if it ever existed) long ago.

the storm maybe too big to smile at

ARGH! i'm not going to bother typing it out because i've already repeated it 5 times today.

i trust you too much lah! but it feels good to fully trust someone again. to laugh at the oddest things, to look into my past on the chapters i closed never wanting to re-open. thank you for putting up with all my crap, and for everything you've done. will keep smiling just because your my best friend.(sorry, you know what for. in my defense you started it, haha)

i'm sorry, i know we haven't hung out much lately, but looks like its my turn to get really busy. i promise i'll still be around if you ever need me. but well, i know i'm not the first person you'd run to. but i'm still glad i'm somewhere on that list. and despite the most inappropriate things you say, i still cherish every moment spent with you.

SIDE NOTE: like the punctuations?
SIDE NOTE: and i'm really sorry if i cant make it on the 14th. it's not because i don't want to, i really do and i'll try my hardest but if i kena means i kena, not much i can say or do.
SIDE NOTE: i don't like my job as much as i thought i would.

Mary Jane

been listening to the click five for the past few days and i found this song quite accurate bout how i feel towards someone who i now see as a waste of time to talk to. was any of it real? 4 years ago? 10 months ago? 4 months? ever?

Mary Jane
by The Click Five

I didn't cry the day you moved away
Didn't think that I would feel this pain
Until I saw the stranger that was you

Whatever happened to our innocence
And that something that you said about being friends
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothing's gonna change
Cuz time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see?
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Or whatever happened to...
Mary Jane

I need to wake up from this state of mind
The situation is a staying kind
I gotta get your memory out of my head

Would you catch me if I had to fall
Would you even find the time without it all
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothing's gonna change
Cuz time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see?
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Or whatever happened to...
Mary Jane

Cuz time is taking back
Everything I thought we had
Tell me how
(Mary Jane...)
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothing's gonna change
Cuz time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see?
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Or whatever happened to...
Mary Jane

fate?

i know i said id blog more often, but yeah, havent really much. lost my rhythm for a bit, but got it back now. and more than ever i can smile in the face of any storm.

todays been odd to say the least, was talking with van on the bus to bishan from thompson bout how cheryl, pam and chris(k) know becky then bout the coincidence bout pam being my aunt. plus found out that val's fav bible verse is same as mine(1 corinthians : 13) and that she might be doing hosp too. just random coincidences.

well few more hours to the last time i get to see bobo. will miss the guy, would really love a dog of my own. but think will have to wait till after ns(hi mom, bet your sayin 'NO' right now)

One day at a time? Take things as they come? Smile at the sun.

SIDE NOTE: did i mention i was only functioning on an hour of sleep casue mom woke me up to close the gate then i just kinda well....forgot...to sleep...

this is war!

who are you to barge in and tell us things we already know. who are you to tell us how we should go about doing things when we have already planned out how we are goin to do them. why should we just hop to you tune because YOU think we arent doing things fast enough. we are adults too. just casue you have donkey years of experience of how to prance around a stage n pretend to be someone your not doesnt mean you can tell us how to do our job.

we are trying, you said so yourself. cant you at least be supportive? i thought you would be. i put so much faith and trust in you. i really thought you would be someone i could count on, yet you betrayed us, more so you betrayed me. how can i look at you the same again.

i agree, a chain is only as strong as its weakest link. but have you stopped to think that maybe YOU are the weakest link? i refuse to let you do this. i will fight and not care the repercussions. this is something i firmly believe in. and as the rock i will stand firm against all you throw at me and by His grace i will survive.

SIDE NOTE: im sorry i couldnt protect you. i wanted to but i didnt know what to say. you know where i stand. i will speak up. he will hear my voice!

shit day

my plan for tmr:
Morning- scoop shit
Afternoon - deal with shit
Evening - listen to shit

yes, its gonna be fun!

*sigh* did i mention how much i HATE 2008. every time it gets to a point im happy, something comes around and messes everything up. not to the point of complete disorder or the like, just enough that i feel damn.....sian....(not angry, just sian, dont know how im gonna deal with it but i will try)

i love Bobo, gonna miss the guy when i have to leave. hes so cute! granted quite lazy but hes such a darling, so obedient and lovey.

got T2, T3, No 4

not enough rest. couldnt concentrate in mass. not really tired, just...'gah'. gonna try n improve my guitar playin, since someone prompted me to. guess its gonna be a very 'lets see how it goes from here' year.

went to taka after mass to meet mom n becky to get my watch(the one with the metal strap) readjusted(its too loose now) then had lunch at the food village. becky got her hor fun which shes been dying for n i had omelet rice with jap curry(nicer than it sounds)

then went back to church to meet pam, cheryl n van to go see chris kwok off at the airport. well we actually went to eat popeye's(his treat, after some coaxing) and he just happen to be there. haha
well, pictures!(insert caption here)waving bye to chrischeryl isnt happy and van doenst carewe are happythe roof of T3everyone was taking picturestesting the seats for quality controlhanging out with daisysee told you!playing on the travalator. we found out if you hold the side and touch someone else you will kena static. and pam wanted to ride it again just to zap all of us.kids in a candy store.Cadbury's Angels just to see if we could fit everyone in
cheryl looks scary when she wants to go home




SIDE NOTE: haha, cheryl i wont miss ***** but i'll miss w**** and w**** haha.