woof woof

firstly, i realised some repercussions of having a public blog. not going into details but those involved probably know what i mean. and im just not gonna care bout what damage has been done. because it wansnt my intention and it wasnt meant for everyone, even though everyone could see it.

now, onwards! the days been long, and interesting. was told i've been selected for further training(k9). on one hand its a great job cause i get a bestfriend for the remainder of my tour of service, down side i'll have less time for my other bestfriends, my sisters, ministry and friends. dont know my hours yet, but will soon enough.

cant really complain since part of my duties is what i wanted in the first place. wish somethings would have gone differently, but no point mulling over them now. like i said, damage done.

SIDE NOTE: damn it, i learned those 3 hard lessons for a bloody reason. why are people screwing around with my problems!
SIDE NOTE: sorry. think this year will be harder than last. i wont forget you. i promise.

i need more sleep

i really havent been getting enough. guess there are just somethings that are more important(not just for now, period) gonna run tmr(not by choice) think i may collapse half-way. hope not, prac tmr is supposed to be fun.

paying for your own transport isnt fun. im tryin just to survive till next thurs. think i've just about balanced my life. things i have to do V.S. things i want to do. i really hope i dont crash. if and when i do think its gonna be quite bad. SO! if i go MIA for a while, like stop replying people, not answer calls, think i'd stil go for mass, ect. you know why! okie! =)

SIDE NOTE: really dont think it would go far. it would be nice, but dont think its that one.(cheryl and pam should know what im talking about)

no time :(

Oh where, oh where has all my time gone
Oh where, oh where can it be
With this and that going from here to there
Oh where, oh where can it be?

just caught i am legend, wasnt the best movie ive seen will smith in but was still really cool. but sad thing is that the converse shop was closed by the time the movie was over so couldnt try and get a new pair of shoes(that ive been tryin to get for months!) still cant really make up my mind between a second pair of adidas or converse.

and to further drive home the fact that i have no time, my guitar is still missing 2 strings and only NOW do i realise the strings i hurriedly got are acoustic strings. least becky is nice enough to go help me get them changed, might ask her to help me string n tune it too. she might be happy since she was complaining bout being stuck at home today.

2 out of 10. im gonna get through this.

SIDE NOTE: some big changes round the house. dont really have the time to sit n deal with my feelings about them. the first was sorta a long time coming, and in a way it is a good thing. hes not suffering anymore. the second im really really not sure how i feel about it. Thank you to my 2 best friends. your words(that ive hung off my tv set) mean alot to me. and thats kinda why i keep smiling. You =)

this is not for any of you

you said yes when i asked you the first time and for that i am truly happy. we shared many good times together and when you asked me the same question i said yes too. but guess you only needed something solid to hold on to. im glad i was able to supposrt you eventhough i was so far away.

messaging you while i was in class(probably why i failed that subject the first time round), stayin up late just talkin; bout anything and everything, what you did, what i did, who hurt you, what we would do on our dates, the ungiven kiss. we had alot of good times. but we both know how it ended.

and though you will never see this i really want to say im sorry. i supported you when every you needed it, but still i wasnt the best boyfriend. i could have done so much better. and now that i look back on it i guess i could have endured a scary movie or 2 just to cuddle you. but guess we are both to blame. you didnt have much time for me either, with your cousin and the cat to take care of. but still im glad to have known you and to have been able to be you rock in the storm.

im sorry to everyone else reading this(in particular to those who are throwing up now) was just something i wanted to write, and who asked you not to read the title!!!