Reasons not to get up in the morning

#1: Thought class was at 8am, in the end was at 845
#2: Felt faint the whole morning (probably due to the fever)
#3: Forgot my whisk(s)
#4: Messed up the filleting
#5: Over roasted the potatoes
#6: Over dried the tomatoes
#7: Over whipped the Meringue
#8: Skin stuck to the pan
#9: Burned the butter and onions
#10: Didn't cook the asparagus properly
#11: Fish ended up being naked
#12: Took me 10 min to plate
#13: Over seasoned potatoes
#14: Sour tasting tomatoes
#15: Connsume looked like chicken broth
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Reasons to get up in the morning:
#1: Because you believe in us.

Thank you chef daisy for all you guidance and support over the past 2 terms, you really have been a mother figure to us, always scolding and nagging at us, we will miss you a lot. =)

A fever you cant sweat out

lol, haven't had the time to do this recently, haha.

well, its finally time; sick again. wont go into the horrible details, but will say its damn weird.

was ok till friday. we had to run our buffet and dont know how or why i ended up upstairs to serve, was just going to play a supportive role, but jacob looked like he was having trouble with the salad so helped him, then as it was almost time o pack up, he said he wanted to go rest, so i told him i could manage and both me and haikel told him to go back downstairs.

when it was time to pack up, taufik tells me that he had gone home. so after class that day i messaged him to see if he was ok, turns out he had a slight fever but rested and felt better, so jsut went home to prepare for session in the evening. FUNNY thing! when i got home i felt kinda feverish too, so just took some pills and drank some water. thought would be fine, since i felt feverish, but didnt have a temperature.

by the time i got home, really felt damn bad. was a scary 38.1, so just went straight to bed. was better when i woke up, was a bit dizzy, but other than that was ok. sat went well, went for class, lan and a movie, came back and drank 2 bottles of wine with the guys (and listened to their crazy plans)(bloody bad idea)

was ok today till i got home, felt damn bad, had to take a short nap just to function...have to finish the assignment, gonna skip morning classes, cant be bothered, my health is more important. haha!

Angst

i may just be over thinking things, but why are you always so angsty or cold towards me, have things changed that much over such a short time? is it cause of that stuff that happened? why? really, whats going on?
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i dont know anymore. haha, not sure if im happy about that or not. no probably not, everything just became a pile of stuff waiting for the opportune moment to spring up and make a mess of things, haha, no such luck for any clean breaks.

Domo Arigato, Imouto.

haha, for a while now been deciding to join the sea bass compt, finally decided against it. haha. took me 2 trials and a lot of thinking to remind me why i started cooking in the first place. haha, and realized that competitions technically goes against my own principles for cooking. also since sat been wondering my current priorities, was kinda obvious today (thanks to phine) haha. hope i can survive school with this new resolve. haha!!

darn! speaking of which! i still need to cut my hair! die. haha!

PS: Boku wa imouto ni aijou o suru! (apologize for what i assume to be bad grammar)

Personal Problems Aside

hmm, been contemplating to set-up another blog for a long while. haha, but cant be bothered! haha! so guess i'll stick to this one!

and enough of the emo stuff, lets see if i can still blog like i used to...

typical friday, IS in the morning (french onion soup, clam chowder and a salad. which all became lunch) got my usual scolding from XL for drinking soft drinks, but really couldn't stay awake...FHH was ok cause of the usual non sense in class, couldn't understand a thing in cost control (though i did burst chef niwaz's bubble when he talked bout ion....speaking of which, val still owes me a jalan jalan session!) fell asleep during demo again, lucky chef daisy gives us the ingredients first now a days, more or less can figure out the order. either way, tmr should be fast.

kinda getting lazy about alot of things (or maybe its sian of somethings, haha, cant tell the diff) still not even sure if i want to enter the sea bass competition, i kinda already have my plan all out, but form the looks of it, chef isnt very supportive of it. haiz, dont know what to do...about alot of things, haha!

least im still keeping my head above water!

"Why cant we be ourselves like we were yesterday"

To: You

its so random, haha. why would i suddenly think of you after so long. went looking for your blog again (no such luck) though if i remember its been a while since you updated anyway. Didnt wish you happy birthday last year. was kinda caught up in stuff. wonder how you've been. saw the poster for the netball championships thing, reminded me of you. haha! not as if you'll ever read this. damn weird that im thinking of you. haha. again, sorry.

Jem.

its so weird, to suddenly miss someone you havent talked to in years. but guess if you could control your emotions, things wouldnt be as interesting right? listening to Bizarre Love Triangle again, after so long. not sure if i remember that song cause of the above person or vice-versa. "oh wells" eh. haha. so much on my plate (school, church, 2 bands) why am i worrying about this? haha!

The Big Question

Someone very wise asked me today "If God wants us to learn something from everything, what could he want us to learn form this."

What do you do when the place you once sought refuge in has been tarnished and contaminated with filth? when everything that goes on around you just makes you want to drop all these time bombs your juggling and run as far away as possible? and worse of all, what is that feeling that makes you want to stand firm and fight through each and everyone of those time bombs?

honestly, can these things come one at at time? or is it just the way i am to deal with everything in one shot?

"Once more into the fray my friends!"

Im Sorry

I know its not fair. We all talked about not doing it again, but the cycle keeps repeating itself. And i know saying im sorry wont change much, or help much. Just know that i tried not to repeat the sins of our fathers, and this is not the future we wanted for you. we love you, im sure you know that. we would like nothing more than for things to be like they were forever.

But...times do change, we know this sucks and its tearing us apart, but the facts cannot be denied, no matter how we try, everything is different now. we have done all we can. but we know it was too late. its our fault and we accept it if you blame us.

I would tell you not to repeat our mistakes, to be more proactive, to see the changes as they happen and correct the problems when they start. Talk, talk alot. we never did. that was one of our biggest mistakes. But dont only talk, also listen to one another.

We all must grow up sometime...

Bassist

picked up a book on playing bass the other day from yamaha. on the first page is a list of jokes. here is one (ant i think you'll like it):

A father bought his 15 year old son a bass and coupons for 4 bass lessons for his birthday. The boy goes for his first lesson and when he comes back his father asks him what he had learned. 'The first 5 notes on the 1st (E) string' says the boy. The next day the boy goes for his second lesson and when he gets home the father asks him what he has learned. 'The first 5 notes on the 2nd (A) string'. Then next day, the boy come home very late and smelling of alcohol and cigarette smoke. The father once again asks him what he had learned during the lesson. To which the boy replied:

"I didnt go for the lesson today. I had a gig."

Still Here

yes! im still here, dont worry, just catching up on a back log of work. Getting minutes out, wedding stuff, ect.

Posts to come:
North District Youth Rally
Novena Procession